Friday, March 18, 2011

In a funk...

I'm totally in a funk about the selection hearing not going in our favor. Again I know that at *C--- will have a famiily but I just wish I knew why it wasn't us. Work has been hell. I can't even sugar coat it. This week has just made me want to cry everyday. No lunch breaks, very trying cases, Michael had to leave to go on a mission for the Navy for a couple days so I've been a single mom, and I have to work the weekend as well. I've got lots of blogs to work on and I'm feeling devoid of creativity. I just can't get my creative juices flowing. My mind is just elsewhere, grieving *C---- and just wishing I was on a beach somewhere :)

AND to top it all off I gave up sugar for lent, so no soft drinks, cupcakes, nothing! I'm trying to make a healthy change and I thought I'd focus on my biggest weakness first and so far I've done great but I think by the end of this I'll have turned into a bitter ogre :)
Anyone else give up sugar? We can be accountability partners to stay on track!

6 comments:

Kim said...

I'm pretty sure that I wouldn't be able to function without sugar and caffeine! You're brave!

Praying for you... I hope things start looking up!

The Davidsons said...

Hey Becky,

I was so sad to read about the disappointing outcome of the hearing selection. I know everything will come together and make perfect sense soon. Wish there was a way to make the waiting easier.

You're in my prayers!
Robyn

Paula said...

Becky, I'm in a funk too.Very desperate for information about when our stupid MOWA letter will turn up and how the slowdown will affect us, and not hearing a peep from our agency. And one of my dogs is declining rapidly into old age. :( I drove through and unfamiliar carwash today and lost my new Adopt Africa magnet. My husband will be out of town several days for each of the next three weeks. I didn't give up sugar or Diet Coke for Lent or I would be done in. Sure wish we could give each other some in person moral support. Try to hang in there.

Jenni said...

hoping that your week gets better...

i feel you on the work thing. i am like that with my job all the time it seems. wish i could focus on the creative part of me and the mom part of me, but instead it always feels like those parts come last, and they should be first.

hang in there. hope your week gets better.

Becky said...

Hang in there! I am sorry to hear about the disappointing outcome of the hearing selection. Not sure why your family wouldn't be picked and yes that would bother me not knowing why! You go girl giving up sugar!!!! I don't think I could do it but I sure do need to give it up.

Deena said...

So sorry to hear about the hearing. I added your blog to my blog list and have been learning so much from you about domestic foster care adoptions. I am really sorry that this little one didn't end up with your sweet family, but I am sure you will have more exciting referrals coming your way (easy for me to say, right?). I'm thinking of you...
Hang in there. By the way, I THOUGHT about giving up sugar, but I was afraid of what a complete B I would be to the rest of my family if I did. Good luck with that one! :)